Selfishness

In the last few days I've really come to realise that I have not been the Christian I should be. I haven't been seeking God and his advice. I haven't supported my friends the best that I could. The other day, someone said, "She is the most selfish person you will ever meet." And as much as I wish I could blow it off, I can't. Do I really care only about myself? Is it really that bad that people point it out? I wish I could have rebuked them, but I couldn't. It made me look at myself, and my actions towards others. Am I the friend that I should be? Have I been there for them? Or have I only been concerned with myself? In all honesty, I can't help but believe them. I haven't been the friend that I should, or really the Christian that I should. As much as it hurts to be called out like that, I'm thankful. I don't want to be selfish. It's sad that it took them calling me out for me to realise it, but now I can fix it. The second commandment that Jesus gives us is to love our neighbor as ourselves. It's not always easy, but I need to really work on that. I know who I want to be, the kind of friend I want to be. Now, I just have to be it.